state of the life (misc.)

Today, I had one of those moments where an inane part of pop culture provides much too much insight into life. In the past, I have given pause to the lines of a song, a commercial, and (worse case scenario) a greeting card. This time, it was a television show (watched on DVD). I thought I was turning on the show to set myself up for a half-hour of slightly distracted knitting time. Instead, I was driven to questioning by some stupid line. The offending line was something like: "Am I just looking for someone to run wild with?"

It caused me to wonder about relationships (which I realize are a thing of wonder)...I have been known to think that I should be looking for a relationship with someone I can take care of and can take care of me. I am beginning to think that I may want more. I think that I am looking to find someone who causes me to be the most me I can be...the good, the bad, and all of the stuff in the middle. I don't think that I want to settle for just okay, for comfortable.

This is the reason that I'm no good at casual dating. I'm too much work for myself.

It's time for me to leave the apartment. I have to put a stop to this train of thought.