Not so much (kind of life)

Now that I have this blog, I feel like I need to make astute comments on life, find insight in things that seem insignificant, and do all of the other care and feeding required to keep entertained. Well, I have not had many thoughts that are suitable for the blog. I know I began this with fierce dedication to the idea of making my private thoughts public. But, this week, I'm less committed to that idea. I'm sure the tide will shift again. But, for right now, I just don't want to tell anyone anything...kind of. And, because I've been spending q.t. in suburbia, my interactions with interesting events has had a much lower batting average than what i hit each time I step out of my door in my urban area. So, the cat-on-the-subway type blogs have been harder to come by recently.

But, still, I feel a little pressure to perform. So, based on a conversation I had a few weeks ago, I will quickly write about some of the lives I could have had if I had not done things to have my current life. Here is my alternative lives, from easiest to think of to hardest:
*I could still be in DC, working for some youth development nonprofit. I may have move from my little MP basement apartment, found someone to nest with, and finally let myself be one of those inside the Beltway people. I always resisted that when I lived in DC...even though I love the word wonk. [I am not really sure if people call someone a wonk with the affection I feel for the term. So, I'm not sure if this option of being a policy wonk is really a good thing.]
*I could have stayed in Flagstaff. I would have adopted a dog or three, as is the trend in that part of the worlds, and talked about fire management plans. I always imagined I would have lived in a little house where I could have blue glass in my kitchen and no curtains on my windows.
*I could have moved to American Samoa after I graduated from college (which was my plan for a few months) and lived a great South Pacific life. I would learn to identify the Southern Cross and the frying pan (the only two constellations I learned about while in New Zealand). I would have learned all about a history I have no knowledge of and traveled to islands like Bora Bora or an atoll for my holidays.

Instead, I'm here. I never imagined I'd end up here…and, my new dreams involve certification in ESL and joining a literacy council.