inner chatter (teaching)

All summer, my mind was quiet. I took information in, thought about
it, and then adjusted or did not adjust my thoughts accordingly.
Today, I realized my calm/ability to stay focused on one topic for
more than .5 seconds has left. On the drive home, my mind was taken
over by the following stream of chatter. "I don't know how to read my
curriculum and no one will help me; I only have two periods a day to
teach my whole class three major subjects on 2 grade levels; one of my
students can't tell me what 'u' says; I have to have them pass the
tests; I forgot to pay my bill; I need to do my homework; I need to
order that book for class; I should eat Taco Bell...." I think this is
the phase in the cycle of change that is something about feeling
unqualified and overwhelmed. It's a good thing I'm out of the
competent and board phase. I could have gotten comfortable.